i thought i'd write about something different today. decided to write about Lulu instead. Lulu is the latest addition to my family. Daddy bought her almost around the end of last year. Why the name "Lulu"? daddy named her Lulu because both my sisters n i have our name's initials starting with the letter "L". so it was obvious then since she is a female. she has her own chinese name too. since my elder sister's is 咏爱，my younger sister, 文爱，and me, 恩爱，daddy decided to call her 可爱. daddy's romantic, right? always coming up with names with the word 爱. i can't imagine myself having another daddy other than him. he's the best in the world.
wait a minute... i haven't mention what's Lulu. Lulu is our family dog. she's a pure chihuahua (at least that's what we were told), the furry breed. she's about 7months old now. very active puppy. but also very smart. we've not quite taught her any tricks yet, because she always loses her focus. she's easily distracted by her surroundings. she knows how to poop in the toilet. she finally learnt to climb upstairs about last month or the previous month. since she finally made it up, it became a new surrounding. guess what? she didn't adapt herself that well, n pooped around upstairs. she's quite naughty indeed.
we also have a cat at home. his name is Neko. he belongs to my elder sister. he's normally only home during meal times and nap times. the rest of the day, he'll be out finding his mate, which reminds me, he use used to have his mating call that's loud and goes like this: "nggooiii ngooii nggooooi nggoooii nnggoooii". weird from a cat, huh? but we don't hear that now. when he's home, if we pet him, Lulu would be jealous and try to steal our attention away from neko. she'll bark and jump around. Neko normally sleeps on the couch. recently, Lulu learnt how to jump on the couch. probably learnt that from Neko because Neko is allowed to do so.
Lulu loves to be played with. if u'd step on a cloth or mat, she'll bite it and try to grab it away from you with her mouth. then, she'll shake her head. it's very cute.she knows how to stand on her own two feet. that's when ur holding something interesting that grabs her attention. for instance, food. with guidance, she can walk or hop at least a meter just to get her food. she can also turn around for about 3 times on her two feet. she's full of surprises. and we love her a lot even though sometimes she can be a bundle full of mischief besides being a bundle of joy.
Lulu
Lulu and the cloth
Snacking
Being Sexy
i recommend you to watch the movie "Marley and Me" if you haven't. it's a very nice movie about a dog and its owners. it's very touching.
don't know what to blog about tonight. but a friend was asking if i'd update my blog. a fan? lols.. flattered. decided to talk about a quite general topic, love and relationships. relationships can be bitter or sweet. no matter how sweet a relationship can be, it is never easy. if you want it working out, you need to work hard. keeping things in line is often hard. if you don't work hard for something, you won't succeed unless you're really blessed like in striking a $50 million lottery ticket, right? a relationship turned sour can always result to hurt often to one party. a best friend once said, "no matter how much u love a person, love goes 2 ways. if it's a one way street, someone's gonna end up hurting." it's true. i know so because i experienced it and i bet many of u have too.
here's what i think about love
love = sacrifices because we love someone, we tend to make sacrifices. it's nice to know once in a while our love one makes a little sacrifice for you. but sometimes, make big silly ones taking risks. Hear me out, think it over and through before u do so. you won't want to regret. think about what's best for you both. i made silly sacrifices, like turning down studies away from my hometown because he didn't want me far from him. realized i should have taken the offer for study. he wasn't even worth my future.
love = commitment if you love someone and intend to go steady with em', then show your commitment and loyalty. yes, it ain't easy. if you can't stay committed then don't start the relationship. not saying you shouldn't be with that other half, but i think that without commitment, the relationship wouldn't last anyway.
love = sweet Love can result in sweet. it's no doubt that you'll have moments where you'll get swept off your feet. broken relationship can always be cherished. i bet you'd had your sweet moments when you were with your ex-es too in the past rite?
love = hurt it's because u love someone that you get hurt. you won't bother that much if someone you don't like doesn't like you back. but if you love someone and he doesn't love you back it does hurt. Love isn't just a chapter of sweet happenings. if you don't have hurt, how do you know what is pleasure and what can result into happiness?
love = roller coaster ride it goes up and down, round and round. it's exciting and sometimes scary.
love = mystery sometimes we don't know what to expect. do we?
love = trust if you love someone, trust them. if they really love you back, they won't let you down. if there's doubt in a relationship, it can lead to instability.
love = respect always respect your other half. respect them, their body parts, their family, their friends, their interest, their all.
love = accepting if you can accept a person for who he/she is then that is love. love should be unconditional where you don't have to set rules.
love = treasure always treasure and cherish the one you love, like he/she is a piece of priceless jewel. don't wait til you've lost that person then regret. live your todays like there's no tomorrow.
love = inspiration love should be about helping each other. through thick or thin. an inspiration to work harder to make a better person out of one's self. growing maturely together, thus making a better future for each other.
love = sharing sharing everything together. hurt, sorrow, joy, happiness, achievement, hardship, loss, you name it all. that's what makes a relationship grow.
love = company take time out to spend with your loved ones. enjoy their company. after all, it's more than friendship.
In my view, you don't have to be with the one you love. as long as the one you love is happy with whosoever then that is what matters. sometimes love isn't about being together. it's about having your love ones being happy. what's the point of being with someone you love but not being happy? isn't it better to see the one you love being happy even though he/she is with someone else? yes it does hurt. but at least he/she is happy. this is what i call true love. maybe it's just the wrong timing or he's just not the one. there might be someone better in store for you. the truth is, you just never know. :)
to my ladies out there, remember this: no guy is worth your tears. the guy that's worth your tears will never make you cry.
Just to get things straight. I've been hearing funny stories of me going around. Although most aren't quite true, it makes me giggle and laugh hearing it. Just let me have a say on this. U can judge me however u want, it's up to u. but i'll convey from my part here.
1. was quite shocking to hear a friend asking me, was it me who broke up with my previous ex for another guy? - No. i did not. in fact i wasn't the one who broke off with him out of a 3 and a half years relationship. i can tell u that i was loyal. if u don't believe that pffftt... just my luck? As to why we broke up, it wasn't my problem and decision. todate, i don't really know the full reason myself. i refuse to put a word out as to why he broke off with me, if not, u'd judge him the wrong way too. i don't want and need you to sympathize me nor think that im the victim in this relationship. i just want to get it straight that i did not PLAY him.
2. the fact that many think i'm playing with guys' hearts? - First and foremost, i've already made up my mind that i don't want to go steady at this time around. i'm only intending friendship at the moment. going out or just casually dating a guy doesn't mean that i'm interested in a relationship. it's not my fault if i get asked out on a date is it? i do tell them that i don't want to go steady, at least not at the moment. i do have a lot of guy friends n i do enjoy their company. can't i have guys to be my friends? i m not interested to go further. - 2nd in mind, shouldn't i have my own choice of men? instead, do you want me to know this one guy, fall for him, then go steady with him, get to know him more, then find out he's not the one then break off with him. then go for another guys, n do it repeatedly. now isn't that considered more to playing? what im doing is just, going out, getting to know others a lot better, instead of starting a relationship then getting to know that someone better. it's better to know he's not the one before starting up the relationship, don't u think? - however, i'm only human to like or fall for someone. and i don't deny that i "did", but we didn't turn out in the end because i didn't want to start anything too soon. problem was on me. not him. i did tell him that he's free to swim in his own sea and catch sight of any "fishes" around him. i can't blame him if he does find someone new. i did not grab hold of him. n yes, glad 4 him that he's got someone new. God bless. =)
3. people pity me because of my recent break up? - thx but don't need to feel bad for me. in fact, it's the best solution for now. life doesn't always work out the way we plan or want. although it was a painful process, i'm learning a lot along the way. when a door closes, another one opens. bonds with other people are stregthen. when i was with him, i never had that chance. things don't always have only its negative sides. there's always a positive side in life. it also opened my eyes wider to the world and reality that love and life isn't always sweet. it just so happened that i got the bad side of it but don't worry, im getting stronger. - i sometimes tend to feel upset, but it's not about my ex. he's not what's bothering me. i don't deny that i miss him a lil sometimes, but it only means he's only a cherished past but a closed chapter of future relationships. what's on my mind is a different story. figuring it out. cheers to a better life =)
4. m i in a relationship? - like i've said, no. i am single but not available. ;)
maybe u've heard quite different versions of my life's happenings. i've just had my share on what to say. it's up to you to believe which is the right one. i don't intend that u must believe mine. as long as i got my say, whatever u think doesnt matter because i know what is really happening around my side, my true friends and family know the true me, n yeah, that's what really matters. u can judge me however u like. cheers
Ah. what a day. i manage to have 7hrs of sleep today. although tired, it's better than the pass few days having lack of sleep. more relaxed today. maybe because i'm taking my step in getting closer to God again. i guess God is filling the emptiness in me. praise the Lord. i went for jogging with cfc today. we went to Taman Rimba. n yes, i've not been active for God knows how long. walked for 1 round. then decided to forced myself to jog 1 round nonstop, if not cannot go home. i was glad i made it. so, YAY, i can go home. it was very tiring indeed. felt like vomiting. cfc jogged for another round. so i walked alone around the playground area thinking. after cfc's jog, he came to me and we chat for a bit. talked a little about my problems. n then, my heart started hurting not literally but in reality. don't know if it was due to not exercising for so long or basically the hurt that im going through lately. was okay a while later. guess it was from jogging then.
after that went home, bath and got ready for movie outing with Oscar, his bro, Ah Yung and May. we watched The Shinjuku Incident. not my average kind of movie but it was quite a nice movie. i'd giv it a rough 7.5star rating. reached home at 11.30pm. Finally had my dinner. then here i am. blogging. i know what i had was quite a short day. at least im more relaxed today. =)
Life is full of many kinds of people. people walk in and out of our lives. but what's a friend? for me, there's two kinds. 1. Hi Bye Friends 2. True Friends
i don't know about u guys, but for me, everyone's a friend. u can judge me and say that some of my friends are hi bye friends and aren't worth my time, effort and worse still, hurt. but i can tell you that everyone is in need of a friend, and no matter what, i'll treat any kind of friend as a friend. yes, i've been hurt frequently by friends. like if i go out with a friend, another friend would say : fine, we're not friends anymore. it's not the easiest decision in the world to make. every friend of mine is precious and i don't hope i have to choose between any, but of course true friends come first lah. i'm just letting this out because i don't want to leave it a scar in me. i'm just glad that i'm blessed with many true friends. and please understand my condition.
i'm not the greatest friend the world has to offer. if i ever hurt any of you i apologise from deep down within. i'd also like to thank everyone who has been there for me, on my hardest falls. i know im not easy to tolerate especially when im down. i can tell u that what im going through now is not easy, in fact, i don't think i've ever faced somthing this hard in my life before. i can't reli express this feeling. i'm totally sorry i have to be this way and it's not my intentions. i'll get back to ME as soon as i can according to my capability okay? I DO LOVE YOU GUYS.
Recently i don't know what's up with me. for the past 3months, i've been out almost everyday. Finally stopped that habit, at least not too often. haven't been out till late night since Sunday, so it's been four days now. however, i had a really busy day today at Uni. i only manage to sleep at about 5am. while lying down in bed, i felt hungry at roughly 3.30am. was so tempted to eat maggi(delicious in the mind), so then i got up and made myself maggi. but after cooking my maggi, eating it didn't seem as tasty as imagined. utility sut berkurangan? had maggi for the past few days too. after eating, played sudoku on my phone. n then read some archie comics. finally fell tired n slpt. Dady woke me up at 8+am. got ready for school. my class starts at 11am, but daddy wanted to take me to pay for my school fees so had to go early. had a rough 2hours of Teknik & Kemahiran Belajar, although did not have to present powerpoint for today. It was due to seeing others go through presentation and getting bombed by the lecturer. he's the opposite of lineant and extra kindhearted. so ya, you can imagine the pressure we had. maybe that's his way of making us work hard, so yeah, understood. just hopefully he won't be so hard on my group for our presentation that's yet to come. after that, had SPS Grand recital. was a great one indeed. enjoyed everyone's performance. The lecturers do have a lot of talent, same goes with students. i will try upload some of their performances if i can. will update you on that. Grand recital finish at about 5pm. i helped with carrying some instruments. will upload some of the instruments wen i get card reader's adapter. so tired after that. went to the music cubicle after that. mummy had already gone home so i had to wait for daddy to pick me instead, which was after his work. since i had so much spare time, i decided to practice my electone. praticed for a while, then my third year senior came in. chitchat with her for about 1/2-1hour. she's really nice. shared with her about music, what i should take as my minor for next semester. and we shared about our ex-es. didn't know she was dating one of our coursemates as well. *winks* she invited me to join their orchestra practise starting from 7-10pm. so well, i agreed. called daddy. but i only stayed til 8.30/9pm. cos i din feel well. in the car, i expressed to daddy how i've been feeling lately. n yeah, i cried but i don't know why. daddy think it's cos im lonely or because Andrew B. psychoed me. haha. but daddy summed up that i might have slight depression or maybe too stressed with school. daddy thinks maybe i don't want to study. honestly, in me, im not sure if i want to or not. music studies is not as easy as what everyone might think. my school/faculty (School of Arts) is the busiest school in UMS. we often stay over school for practises. and yes, it is stressful. i didn't want to mention about quiting school. afterall, daddy had just paid my school fees. of course i didn't want make daddy sad or disappointed. i know daddy loves me so much. for that, i'll try my best, show daddy that im worth something. went home then. mummy cooked one of my favourites especially for me. fried sotong. little things like these shows mummy love me as well. now, how could i let my mummy down too right? i just know im BLESSED! i know God never forsakes me. He's always watching over me. this makes me want to come back to God more. At the hardest corners of my life, He's always been there to show me little things that represents His undying love and that He's never left me. i just wish i can fully break the wall that's a barrier from me to Him. working on it. God bless everyone! =)
Lulu
Lulu and the cloth
Snacking
Being Sexy
Marley and Me
